I’ve entered the game at a new level. There is absolutely no way that I’ll be tipped over into such an astonishing emotional chaos as I was last summer ever again. I also think it’s absurd that it did happen in the first place and I’m still in the process of trying to figure out how it could happen to me. No one has ever driven me off the cliff in such a manner. No one has ever mirrored me in such a negative way before. I had never seen myself like that.
It’s different now, I have changed my ways and I’ve basically decided that it will not happen again. The keyword is balance. I strive for it and when I feel it slipping, I’m just going to focus on my breathing until I can feel my legs firmly on the ground again. So simple. So challenging.