This summer, Danish television showed “FLYING: Confessions of a Free Woman” in a series of 6 episodes. At first I was not too keen to watch it, but after seeing one episode I was completely engrossed in it. The film is asking questions and considering issues that are really important to women. What does the modern woman want? What is a woman’s life like around the world? Do women have a special language? The narrative is following Jennifer Fox’s personal life over four years and her conversations with other women around the world. Super intimate and honest conversations. I’m really impressed. There are only very few of my own friends who are so open about their lives and how they live.
Jennifer Fox’s personal story really resonated with me. She was in her thirties when she started to think about doing this movie. Just like me, she had wanted to be free all her life, when suddenly at some point in her thirties she wanted a change. I’ve followed much of the same patterns in life as Jennifer. I have always had a lot of freedom. I wanted to have a lot of freedom. I have basically done exactly what I wanted to do all my life. Marriage, children and living a traditional A4 format life was never a goal for me. My mother raised me to become an independent person and I have become that. I really appreciate the opportunities and freedom that I’m fully enjoying. I feel that I’m good at being single. I feel being by myself is easy, I know what to do and I feel strong. Still, I would like to have a good realtionship with a man. My biggest challenge is to be in a relationship. I struggle when I’m in one. Always. I loose myself as soon as I enter one. Even if I swear that this time around I’ll make sure that it will not happen. I end up feeling more lonely in a relationship than I do when I’m actually single and by myself. So because of that, it’s always a relief to get out of relationships for me.
Nevertheless, I feel it’s time in my life to make a serious change. I really would like to be able to have an emotionally satisfactory relationship with a man. That is my goal. What it will take for me to be happy in one? I’m trying to figure that out now.
That is why it’s so inspiring to follow Jennifer’s blog on how she is trying to make a relationship work in a real way.