I’m having trouble seeing where I am in five years time…even just one year is such a long time. I have no idea where I want to be.Â There are so manyÂ things slowlyÂ coming togetherÂ for me and I’m doing a lot of things that I’ve always wanted to do. Even so, I’m just not falling into place anywhere. I have no sense of calm where I am right now. Or anywhere. There is just a feeling ofÂ restlessness.Â Hence theÂ travelling, the internetÂ addiction andÂ the frantic search for helpful images,Â that I canÂ absorbÂ to give me some idea of my identity. I recognize the “I like” and “I don’t like”, it’s just that “I don’t know” pops upÂ a bit tooÂ often. So for as long as it helps I’ll keep looking at things. Just observing.Â If only, just to figure out whatÂ I think theyÂ are.