The sky gets closer
light slips through the leaves
I see your arms and they look like they can carry me
but I don’t want to be carried
I want to be lifted
with you close to me

It feels very interesting to try and survive as a fragile crocus in this park,
most people use the opportunity to step on me,
while they are running after their misbehaving dogs,
who are cursed to instinctively chase the worm eating fat doves.

…story continued…

I’m so in love with directing team Skinny’s trashy David Lynch-ian style! The clip from Partizan is banned from Facebook and Youtube. Weird…since reality is always stranger and scarier than fiction.

There is a quiet distance.
I notice my heart’s thin lining and I think it’s love,
but when I start to count my heartbeats,
I feel it’s over.
A rhythm’s disappearing act.

There are no words, there are no birds singing,
there is no us, there are no others.
I don’t want anything from you,
I just want to know you until we exist.

Beautiful video shot in Copenhagen from Darkness Falls

Once a year, my High School girlfriends and I go on a trip together. Every time, it really hits me how different we all are as people and how we live our lives. Despite all our differences, though, we have a deep care for one another and share a history of references from a time when there were so many intense firsts. The first time we got drunk, the first time we fell in love, the first time we had our hearts broken and all the other firsts, which filled our adolescent years living in a small town in Norway. It never gets old to go down memory lane of old crazy times. Actually, crazy times is not over for any of us. We still go there and then there are the rest of life’s firsts. I look forward to next time…

Directed by Skinny (PARTIZAN).

This time try
Try it hard to make it better
If you stop me, then
We’ll be on our own
We’ll be on our own
Always on the run

Trailer trash très chic!

Your skin is the last thing I see before I close my eyes
You see the rest
I’m waking up
When I hold my breath, you exhale
This air has no distance
I don’t know who you are when you are not here
I kiss you so you don’t have to speak

Your kiss is in every little thing
In the cherry picked at night
With the dew of summer swelling
There’s a juice of pure delight
Cool, dark, sweet, divinely smelling

Wow. This girl blows me away. So inspirational! Steph Davis also has a great blog.

I’ve turned around to the other side of the bed. I see the the night wander by outside my window and I don’t notice.
If you were here, something would be missing. Now I’m holding silence and air tightly to my body.
When I close my eyes, I can see all the other things. If only I could remember in my dreams that there are no rules and I can make anything happen.

Crush a bit, little bit, roll it up, take a hit
Feelin’ lit feelin’ light, 2 am summer night.
I don’t care, hand on the wheel, drivin drunk, I’m doin’ my thang
Rollin the Midwest side and out livin’ my life getting’ out dreams
People told me slow my roll I’m screaming out fuck that
Imma do just what I want lookin’ ahead no turnin’ back
if I fall if I die know I lived it till the fullest
if I fall if I die know I lived and missed some bullets.

Everything happens for a reason. I counted my blessings, made a few resolutions, and then cracked open another bottle of champagne. I love falling into the loving embrace of all the wonderful surrounding people in my life! It allows me to see the beauty all around my everyday life and for that, I am very thankful. Happy 2011, everybody! It’s gong to be a blast!

JAMES BLAKE - LIMIT TO YOUR LOVE from martin de thurah on Vimeo.

I know I know I know
That only I can save me
I’ll go I’ll go I’ll go
Right down the road

…said Buddah. Very true. I decided very early on after my father passed away in May that I wanted to stay in Copenhagen for Christmas this year. I thought that I would miss him less if I were in a setting in my life that he had not been part of. That was a huge misjudgment. Memories of him sneak in everywhere, anyway. In small situations like for example when I’m buying cheese in the grocery store, “Ahhh, my father would love this cheese”. Well, not anymore. His presence is gone and we all miss him so painfully much. That’s life, though. Things changes all the time. I just received an email where someone said about the photo I made this morning that it made them think that “in reminiscence of sadness and joy, a new life begins”. So true. Warm thoughts to everyone on this Christmas Eve!

Indestructible from Robyn on Vimeo.

Your love is ultimate
Not again it’s taking over
This is hardcore
Ooh and I’m gonna love you like
Like I’ve never been hurt before
I’m gonna love you like I’m indestructible

Milton Glaser’s essay “Ten Things I Have Learned” has a lot of good points to consider. One subtext that especially resonated with me was “Some people are toxic, avoid them”:

“There was in the sixties a man named Fritz Perls who was a gestalt therapist. Gestalt therapy derives from art history, it proposes you must understand the ‘whole’ before you can understand the details. What you have to look at is the entire culture, the entire family and community and so on. Perls proposed that in all relationships people could be either toxic or nourishing towards one another. It is not necessarily true that the same person will be toxic or nourishing in every relationship, but the combination of any two people in a relationship produces toxic or nourishing consequences. And the important thing that I can tell you is that there is a test to determine whether someone is toxic or nourishing in your relationship with them. Here is the test: You have spent some time with this person, either you have a drink or go for dinner or you go to a ball game. It doesn’t matter very much but at the end of that time you observe whether you are more energized or less energized. Whether you are tired or whether you are exhilarated. If you are more tired then you have been poisoned. If you have more energy you have been nourished. The test is almost infallible and I suggest that you use it for the rest of your life.”

Milton Glaser, I will. Humans are unconsciously competing for the energy that flows between people. It’s crucial for me to be conscious and notice whether people who are around me suck my energy out or on the opposite, makes me feel nourished. For a long time it was a puzzle why I felt so tired and drained in general. I’d been trying to do many different things to increase my energy. Sleep, eat well, relax, meditate, run and even acupuncture. It all helped somewhat, but I wanted to feel even more energized. So after I read Milton Glaser’s essay I started to notice how I felt in different people’s company and sure enough, very often I walked away from certain people feeling emotionally exhausted. My first solution was as Milton Glaser say, to stay away from these people. That’s easy to do with some. It’s more tricky with people I work with or family members. So in my opinion, decreasing the amount of energy suckers in my life partially solved the energy problem. My next step is to break free from the competition over mere human energy, because I can tap into and get it from another source…more on that later …